Another big session today. Lots of tears and realizations. Far out - how can one person who is supposed to be on this path of self realization be so screwed up?
I never ask for help - unless I have 100% assurity that I will get it. I value security and my independence over everything and yet value love and connection at that high level too. No wonder I have so much conflict in my life.
This surgery will be a big wake up call and journey for me - because there will be nearly a week I cannot do a thing - go to the toilet - brush my teeth sit up - without asking for help - and it will be from complete strangers that I will need to ask for this assistance.
Am feeling mentally and emotionally tired after today.
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